ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

I may be trying to do too much....

and it is starting to catch up with me.

Turns out training and practicing for nationals takes up a lot of time. And a lot of that time is time I could be sleeping. It also doesn't help that Lucas is no longer sleeping through the night. We are trying to do a bit of sleep training with him, but I am not doing a good job at this either. He gets up at 3:30 and I know that if I just feed him he will go back to bed, but therein lies the problem. I have to stop feeding him at night so that he knows there is nothing to eat at night time and night time is for sleeping. But that's hard to remember when it is 4:00 am and there is no sign of him going back to sleep or settling down and I have to be up in an hour for practice. You can see how I might be tempted to just feed him and go back to sleep.

Lack of sleep puts me on edge. Things that normally wouldn't bother me drive me crazy. It's not like I haven't gone without sleep before, but this is going on a bit long and I thought that maybe there was hope of me sleeping again by now. When Lucas was very little getting no sleep didn't really bother me because I think that's what I expected. Now that I expect him to sleep I'm finding it really hard when he doesn't.

OK...to remedy this situation I should sleep when I can during the day and forget that my house is slowly turning into a disaster zone. It would also help if I didn't have to shower but then I think I would have a whole new set of problems. Maybe being on the computer a bit less wouldn't hurt either....

Time for a nap.